Possible Pokemon Picspams Incoming?

Over the next month or so, there seems to be some interesting sounding episodes of Pokemon. One's another Team Rocket episode, so I'll most likely be doing a picspam post of that one. (I never did get around to doing a picspam of the Team Rocket Gets Fat episode, did I?)


Then, there's a Pokeringer competition. I bowed out during the Hoenn saga, so I never got to see the original Pokeringer episode; but I know that Kojiro was involved in it. Yes! I need a good Kojiro-related episode! Then again, all of the Kojiro-focused episodes are awesome. ^_^


Next, I hear that there's going to be a one-hour special at the end of next month, but the first part sounds very interesting to me. We all know that Hikari's Mamoswine is D/P's version of Charizard, right? Well, it sounds like they're pulling a Charizard Chills! on it against an Aggron. Now, I'm not sure if it's a wild Aggron or some random trainer's Aggron, but...Hentai Megane-kun has an Aggron, right? And he told her that if she needed to know something about Pokemon, she should ask him. I don't have any summary on the episode yet, but there might be a possibility for a Creepy Kouhei Picspam. OH GOD, I HOPE SO!!!!

I Think I've Hit Another Wall

I never got around to talking about this, last week, but I had a little bit of tragedy. My beloved Fujiya is gone; they barely lasted a year. I saw this coming ever since I found out it was there, but it was still felt random. My hometown's an uncultured hicksville, and then there's the economic crisis; so it shouldn't be surprising. But still, I just feel so bad for Sam and Tae. This was their fourth try, and it just breaks my heart to see them fail again. Plus, I never even got to say goodbye to them, which makes me feel even worse. I don't know what they're doing now, but I'm hoping that Sam got a job at a well-paying Japanese restaraunt; because his skills should not go to waste.

Next, my dad just bought a huge-ass truck. I knew he was going to do it; I just knew it. -facepalm- We're in a crisis, and he ends up buying $32,000 truck. I should have spoken up about it more, but then again, he wouldn't listen anyhow. 'Taku!

I apologize for not doing my anime fannage, lately. I've been doing that over in my LJ, but I'll try to do some more over here soon. I actually haven't done some for the past few episodes of Tytania, to be honest. I just need to figure out the best way to cover the past three episodes. For that matter, I need to catch up with Linebarrels of Iron. Crunchyroll was acting stupid during 14, and I ended up stopping in the middle of it.

I don't think I need to go into the G00 front, for now. I'm sure anyone who's paid attention can figure out my feelings on what's been going on. And I'm starting to get worried about the series itself. I don't see it becoming as screwed up as Code Geass, but I am starting to worry that some of the plot points from season one have been dropped. As with Geass, I'd rather take plot/character development over fanservice any day. While the fanservice has dropped in G00, some things have been shoved aside nonetheless. -sigh- Now I understand the meaning of the term "Sunrise Sequal Syndrome". -_-' Stupid executive meddling. Let the directors do things their way, dammit!

Beyond Their Comprehension

So, last night, Sci-Fi had a mini Gundam marathon showing eps 21-24. Naturally, I ended up crying my guts out over Lockon, but I was so loud that Mom came in and started freaking out on me. I usually try to stay quiet when I cry because I don't like anyone seeing that side of myself; however, I just couldn't hold back for some reason. I knew it was coming, but it was just as heartbreaking as the first time. (Actually, I cried harder than the first time. Also, major kudos to Alex Zahara for his portrayal as Lockon. In my opinion, he ties with Miki; hell, I even think he sounded like Miki at times.)

The thing that gets me, though, is that people need to realize that it's just one of my quirks. I know its stupid for me to cry over an animated drawing, but when an animated drawing has a personality, of course I'm going to develop some sort of feeling for them.

Nine years ago, I started watching anime, and I got a teenage crush on Kojiro from Pokemon. My first episode was Holy Matrimony, and I immediately took to the poor guy. I still feel for him, but I've come to accept his place as one of the comedic villains. I even think he's become cuter, after all this time. Heh. Its funny that I'm talking about Kojiro and Lockon in the same post; two of my favorite Miki characters.

My more classic example would have to be my first "true love"; my beloved Ernest-sama. I think what initially attracted me to him was his gentility. All of the guys that I've been around have had a severe lack empathy, so I found Ernest's personality refreshing. Sure, he was weak and could easily be mistaken for a woman, but he did have his moments of strength. So, I ended up with an instant infatuation-turned-outright obsession for him. I think I'd even go so far as to say that if he were a woman, I'd still end up loving him.

Sadly, my heart was crushed when he sacrificed himself for Garu. However, it wasn't the fact that he died for the guy who he secretly loved; I was just crushed because he died, period. The next day, I cried off and on, but I could never tell anyone what happened. Mom kept prying me about it, but I had to turn her away because I knew she'd never understand how I felt. She eventually got the message, and naturally she disapproved of my reaction. It was the same thing that happened to me, last night.

I think that's part of the reason why I don't cry in front of other people. I'll either get bitched at, embarrassed, or no one understands. So, I swallow my emotions, but I also know that isn't a good idea. If I keep my feelings locked up, when they come out, its like a dam breaking at full-force. There have been moments where I've been close to reacting violently, but I've managed to stop myself. I'm serious, its freaking frustrating when no one understands your feelings.

I'm afraid that they just have to realize that I'm a totally different breed than normal people. I never gave anyone permission to control my feelings. They just need to get that I'm going to get upset over such things, whether they like it or not. If they can't accept that, then they should at least have the decency to shut up and leave me alone.